my apologies

I must apologize for my lack of posting lately. There are so many fun things going on at home that I keep wanting to share, but...

I can't because my computer (for lack of a better word) SUCKS.

Not only does it freeze on me all the time, it also takes about 10 minutes to start up. The screen stays blue for at least half that time. Paul was trying to work on it last night and told me that now it doesn't even recognize my keyboard or mouse. I hate my computer right now. If I am remembering correctly, the last time I was on my desktop was over a week ago.

My dad has yet to receive his Father's Day present because when I try to print, my computer freezes.

My camera has videos and photos that I'd enjoy sharing, but it wigs out when I try to do that, too.

For now, it seems as imageless blogs are what I will have to deal with until something gets done with my desktop.

so...

Evan is now dancing! Since we've been listening to his music nonstop, he's how begun to sway back and forth as we listen. Its adorable and it just makes me laugh. He's so stinking cute! I'll try to capture it on video and post it.

Here I go back to my sleep concerns (I know...they're neverending):

I am so thankful that he is now getting a solid stretch of sleep. We've been waiting some time now! Soon after, he began waking at 5 am. That turned into 4:45, then 4:30, then 4:15, then 4:00, and now...3:45. We would wait to go get him until at least 5, but lately, he just cries and doesn't go back to sleep. I wondered if he was still hungry, so the past two days I went and gave him a little "snack". The first time, he screamed when I left and slept a little on and off till 6. Today, he cried when I left, stopped quickly after, fell asleep and slept until just before 5:30.

So my question is...why is he waking up earlier and earlier? Should I not feed him? Should I go back to the shuffle, wait in the hall, and shush him until he falls asleep (or not).

I hate to think that he's only sleeping 9 hours at night - he's so tired in the morning. I can't remember the last time he woke up without crying.

off to a good start

I am now two days into my two weeks of meetings and planning before school starts up again. Here's a summary of what I have learned/done:

HR paperwork...lots of it
Learned how to set my proxy for using Foxfire at school
Created a new profile on my laptop
Learned how to navigate and use PowerTeacher
Learned a put our evaluation/observation program TAP
Scheduled my observation pre-conference for Aug. 9
Scheduled my observation for Aug. 16
Pumped in the bathroom
Become aquainted with the 8 new teachers (out of 17)
Learned about Junior Great Books
Participated in a Shared Inquiry with the books mentioned above
Created screen shots on Macs
Learned how to create PDF files of websites
Updated my information on our cluster page
Talked about E to my colleagues
Met our new CEO
Received my tuition reduction form to complete
Missed being with E
Ate a lot of carbs (I.e.- donuts, muffins, cinnamon rolls, banana bread)

Testing my mobile blogging

i don't wanna...

go back to work
and have to pack my lunch
and pump in a closet or bathroom
and think about student engagement strategies or higher order questioning
and be away from my boy
and cutting my time down with him awake from 24 hours to 15
and miss his laugh from me chasing him around the house
and not changing his poopie diapers multiple times a day
and missing eating snacks and lunch together
and having him come to me when he's wanting a hug
and listening to him babble
and kissing him all the time

Oh how I don't wanna go back to work.

3:55

That was our wake-up call this morning from our precious little boy.

I looked at the clock, rolled over, let out a HUGE groan, and said to Paul, "He keeps waking up earlier. Should I go in there?"

Afraid of the crying that would ensue if I were with him or stay in bed, I listened to Paul. Surprisingly, Evan did well. I fussed a bit, called out a couple of times, played, and laid in bed quietly. I was even able to catch a little more sleep. Just before 5:00, he fell asleep without a peep! He did wake 30 minutes later, but at least he slept a little longer.

Before having a baby I never...

Went to the bathroom with the door open
Looked at someone else's poop...no, studied someone's poop
Let my mom see my boobs since being a little kid
Peed myself without laughing
Had someone vomit on me
Thought so much about good nutrition
Made acorn squash
Been so tired
Felt so proud
Known pure joy
Been so in love with someone so small